BEWARE

a feared woman

with good reason

Ixtabay sits by the sea

awaiting tanned fishermen, spanish sailors or bearded pirates

men

always men

enter her web

and disappear

into their own excesses

don’t blame

Ixtabay

blame yourself

MOMENTS

our picture now graces the wall at abuelos

the young woman server at the small family restaurant

asked if she could snap our image

you’re a beautiful couple, she said

i ordered a large margarita with salt and lime

stephanie asked for the cabernet

a whole bottle so I could carry what she didn’t drink back to our hideaway to finish while listening to night waves wash over my mind

then i ordered modelo negra

ah, un otro, i said in my greenhorn spanish accent

guacamole

whole red snapper on the bone

sea steaks with yucatán paprika maya style

 creatures comfort creatures

THIRD EYE

an afternoon siesta in the sun

seems like a lousy idea

too hot to sleep beneath beach umbrellas anchored in the sand

who dares doze

on plush cushions stretched across seaweed free playa norte?

who orders orange neon drinks swimming in cracked ice delivered by young barefoot women wearing thin black ankle-length sundresses?  

never close your third eye

savor electric shivers up and down your pineal gland

intuition never sleeps

awareness is a dark frigate bird hanging in bright sky

almost motionless

a calling card to strangers

drifting in blue space

a ticking kite

an arcane kite

watching   

IGUANA

empty in peach sun

above the beach

morning drinks at the guru beach club

for world travelers rich enough to afford luxury

our terrace awakes to mango pudding heat and hummus humidity soaking rich and poor in mexican majesty or yucatán misery

swimming with the lizards isn’t for everybody

survival depends on the lizard

TURTLES

you couldn’t see them at first but they were out there

bobbing helmeted heads

riding the tide

ancient surfers from faraway lands a thousand miles away

swimming toward edgy earth to accept Ixchel’s help

in choosing a mate

connecting in cosmic unity

giving birth to new life that awakened in sifting sand before crawling slowly with baby turtle steps back to the sea

SATORI

my first drink off the menu brought mescal and pepper salt

to cracked dry lips

a welcome drink at the guru beach club bar

ah, good, sings a brown-faced jack kerouac diety in a song sung by a black messenger bird

sand seeker suckers at the bar don’t hear jack’s melody

i whistle back

through pineapple passion and lime juice spit

wetting my whistle to share knowledge I know

but not too much

no guru should know too much 

until the time comes to order another cocktail rimmed with

hot pepper salt and a double shot of  

enlightenment that comes served in a big glass

Maya moon goddess Ixchel guards the entrance to Punta Sur.  

Giver of life to humans and nature, she protects women above all, offering refuge on this island of women from pirates who plunder at their own risk.

Marauders die.

Ixchel lives.

Giving birth to purple rainbows, our mighty ancient diety gives us love when we most need her warm embrace.

Fierce when necessary, directing floods and storms, Ixchel punishes mad ravers who betray kindness.

A sea turtle sits atop her head. Other times a snake decorated with human bones wraps around her head and neck. Claws shape her feet. Holding a fertility fish, she brings nourishment and breath to the Mexican Yucatán Peninsula where we walk softly the sacred land of our earthly existence.

Surrounded by dancing palm trees, pristine white sandy beach and an aquamarine lagoon bordering the Caribbean Sea, I told the bartender where I was from.

“Scranton, Pennsylvania,” I said.

The deeply tanned young woman’s eyes immediately lit like burning turquoise gemstones glistening in the afternoon Mexican sun.

“No,” I said before she could respond. “Don’t tell me.”

“I love ‘The Office,’” she said, accommodating me in fluent English and digging into instant common ground we suddenly shared as strangers in Isla Mujeres, a tiny tropical island off the coast of the Yucatán Peninsula.

As far as she was concerned, idiot characters Dwight Schrute and Michael Scott from the American TV show are my lovable loser first cousins.

The next day, our guide for a tour in a golf cart — golf carts and scooters are ubiquitous on the island — picked us up at the Lotus Hotel with a smile offset by a brain loaded with local lore, history and deep cultural facts.

“Where are you from?” he wanted to know.

“Pennsylvania,” I said.

Blue eyes fired on all cylinders.

“Scranton?”

In a weird moment better suited for “The Twilight Zone,” another addictive American TV rerun, I knew I couldn’t escape the brand that shadowed my existence like a bad prison tattoo inked on my face.

“Somebody in the hotel told you,” I said.

The grin widened.

Nobody told him.

Sad to say, “The Office” now defines Scranton as the center of a nitwit universe populated by Dwight, Michael, Jim, Pam, Kevin and other imaginary friends who make the best of a dull and mundane life in my hardscrabble former coal town built by immigrants and their descendants who deserve better than a facetious comedy to label who and what we represent.

Scranton Mayor Paige Gephardt Cognetti actually endorses a plan to make the city more “walkable” that includes utilizing “The Office” as a theme. Jeff Speck, the urban design planner and a Boston-based business called Nelson\Nygaard pocketed $239,800  in Scranton’s American Rescue Plan Act funds for a “study” that  suggests and encourages placing statues of show characters throughout the city, resulting in what Speck called “a downtown rebirth of a magnitude that cannot yet be imagined.”

Speck spoke with a straight face.

“I think maybe you’re a little proud and you don’t want this to be your world image. I’ve got news for you,” Speck told the public last year when he and Cognetti unveiled their bubbleheaded plan. “It is your world image. And people love it and they love you because of it. And I think it’s a mistake to not hitch your wagon to the star and do something about it.”

I’d prefer hitching the wagon to Speck’s dorky vision so Cognetti (if she ever regains her intellect) can drive him and his asinine advice back to where he came from. I seriously urge the mayor to rethink her misplaced exuberance for foolishness and refuse to pay the publicly-funded consulting bill. Instead, Cognetti should loudly berate the carpetbaggers’ incompetence for even suggesting we showcase our tough still-struggling town as an insulting sideshow attraction that turns hard-working ethnically and racially-mixed people into an international laughing stock. 

Instead of Scranton shining on the world map because of our proud yet painful anthracite mining history, a past that still defines countless Scranton families including my own, a history of sacrifice, hard labor and achievement, Scranton looms synonymous with a harebrained television show.

Reviewers call the NBC mockumentary cringe-worthy and sarcastic – in too many ways the definition of Scranton community leaders who embrace contemporary cool rather than ancient coal in all its gory glory.

No one should fault our Mexican friends or anyone else for enjoying the show. The laugh’s on us. Ha ha. But stamping Scranton’s seal of approval with trademark tomfoolery and wallowing in its frivolity is like slinking into a VD clinic and asking for more disease instead of penicillin.

To make matters worse, rather than evolve with Mexico’s bold tradition of resistance and revolution, Maya brilliance and breath-taking natural environmental beauty, young Mexicans and who knows how many others globally embrace American pop culture at its worst with Scranton targeted as ground zero.

To our golf cart guide’s credit, his first stop included a three-paneled pastel color wall mural showing scenes from the Mexican Revolution that showcases women rebels, Zapata and Pancho Villa all cradling rifles above ferocious national emblems of the snake and eagle that mark Mexico as a powerful civilization.

I told our guide about the goofy Dwight Schrute wall mural near the National Bakery in Scranton. But I shamefully kept quiet about “The Office” cast mural that takes up another whole building wall in the heart of Scranton’s business district.

I had already related to the hotel bartender my personal experience with Rainn Wilson who plays Schrute in the show and how I once reached him on his cellphone when he blew off attending a local party with all the other stars of the “beloved” production. The bartender stood in awe as I described Wilson as whiny and incensed by my call, demanding and failing to find out where I got his private phone number and ordering me to never call him again.

I also told her about the recent foot race where 1,500 runners from across the country and the world flocked to Scranton to dress like their favorite “Office” character and run or walk down streets and past sites featured in the show that isn’t even filmed in wannabe hip Scranton but in too hip California.

“‘The Office’ used Scranton,” I said.

Only one other force of power and influence has used Scranton as much if not more. That singular dynamic phenomenon with hooks deep into Scranton’s roots is Joe Biden, a buffoonish caricature in aviator shades and an ice cream cone hat  who even has a new city street and nearby expressway named after him.

Our golf cart guide wanted to know if American voters will choose Trump or Biden in the November presidential election. How did this bright young man who flew a Palestinian freedom flag from his golf cart perceive a doddering American president getting sucked deeper and deeper into the Israeli genocide in Gaza he supports, enables and helps with taxpayer-funded bombs?

Good question, señor.

I later pondered his inquiry as our United Airlines flight home detoured presumably because of bad weather in the southeastern part of the United States. Our pilot hugged the Gulf coast east of New Orleans, cruising over Biloxi, Mississippi, Mobile, Alabama, La Grange, Georgia and other onetime hotbeds of slavery, heading north through the Confederacy American rebels are convinced will rise again as a beacon of conservatism in the land of cotton.

How do narrow-minded antebellum-brained right-wingers perceive “The Office,” Scranton and “Scranton Joe” who makes more and more of his “hometown” Scranton birthplace each day as he crisscrosses America begging for re-election votes?  Like Trump, endless Dixie rednecks still hate Blacks, Jews, women, immigrants, queers and blue-belly Northern elites like Biden. Do you think the average gumbo bar bouncer, shrimp fisherman or abused single mother serving beer in a hillbilly bar watches “The Office” reruns on days off and will vote for Biden?

Official Biden surrogates like Cognetti might unwittingly be doing Biden more harm than good as she cheers for “The Office” and Biden at the same time. The mayor better search deeper than the shallows of Biden loyalists’ minds for meaning as she sings along when Dwight Schrute and Michael Scott warble, “Ain’t no party like a Scranton party ’cause a Scranton party don’t stop.”

If voters turn on Biden, the party’s over.

On Thursday night, home in Scranton at last, I headed downtown for a tomato and basil pie. Standing outside Buona Pizza I watched a guy across the street take pictures of “The Office” mural. He snapped a shot, turned slowly in an aimless circle, snapped another and rotated in the other direction. Then he stood staring into space like he forgot where he was.

No, it wasn’t Joe Biden.

On second thought, maybe it was.

 you have too much, señor

we do not have enough

we will share with you what we have

If you’re appalled by Columbia University students occupying an iconic New York City campus building made famous by ’60s anti-war student protest, patriotic thoughts of the Boston Tea Party must terrify you.

Columbia protestors broke a few windows in their continuing demonstrations against the Israeli/American genocide of Palestinians in Gaza. Tea Party insurrectionists rallied revolutionaries across 13 colonies to stand against tyranny.

Proud student radicals at colleges and universities across America now confront a tyrannical police state and the American-made extermination of tens of thousands of civilian men, women and children.

Aging and gray at 73, yet as committed to the rising as ever, I stand with rebels past, present and future. Half a century ago as a young counterculture guerrilla in my nation’s capital, I, too, faced off against armed riot cops and the power of the Establishment.

Revolution is always worth the struggle.

In my flashback a personal political epiphany mingles with acrid pot smoke and poisonous tear gas burning my eyes. It’s November 14, 1969, a chilly Friday night in Washington, D.C., when normally refined DuPont Circle boils over with turmoil and violence.

I’m 18 years old.

The Vietnam draft is eating up male teenagers very much like me who die in thick, humid jungles in a corrupt and apocalyptic South Vietnam. Mostly white long-haired radicals smolder with tension amid rumors of troops heading our way. National Guard soldiers with loaded rifles patrol in troop convoys. We’re rocking with unrest.

To confront pungent CS chemicals in the air I do need a weatherman to tell which way the wind blows.

I had started classes at the Pennsylvania State University two months earlier, “on my own” for the first time in my life. Max and Gary, a couple of non-college buddies with whom I played varsity sports in high school, drove from one part of the rural Keystone State to another in State College for the weekend to hang out in my dorm room, smoke weed, drink sweet Bali Hai fruit wine and drop little purple pills of $3 organic mescaline.

Mike and Brian, two other freshmen from the fourth floor of Beaver Hall where my peers had elected me floor president (I got thrown out of the dorm early the next year after a drunken fist fight), crash the party waving a poster advertising a massive anti-Vietnam War demonstration a good four-hour drive away. 

Like Grace Slick and Jefferson Airplane urge on their new album, “Got a revolution, got to revolution.”

When we pull into the nation’s capital packed into Max’s boxy Ford Falcon, the crowd surrounding us on all sides is so massive traffic freezes. A ragtag radical civilian army advances with purpose none of us knew existed as we pile out of the car and stare.

Raucous unfamiliar chants of “Ho, Ho, Ho Chi Minh, NLF is gonna win” erupt, pounding echoes in our brains. We’re too naive to understand the roar for the National Liberation Front as an endorsement of President Richard Nixon’s foe in America’s unjust war, the North Vietnamese army and the Viet Cong killer guerrillas. We heard little about that enemy back home when Rich and Bing and Danny and Larry returned to the world traumatized from the war or when little Mike Wright was the first boy on our block to come home in a box.

I refused to go to Mike Wright’s viewing at the tiny town firehouse, instead choosing to drink beer on another friend’s front porch on High Street in Duncannon, PA. A guy who passed the house said even laying in his coffin dead in his Army uniform, Mike’s smooth young face looked peaceful, like he was sleeping and not dead. The mourner said somebody told him the piece of shrapnel that pierced Mike’s heart was as thin as a sewing needle.

Red, yellow, black and green banners snap and wave in the cold wind. Giant papier-mâché heads bounce up and down, freaky carved political puppets alive and dangling from poles as budding tribes of untamed natives howl “YIPPIE” and race deeper into menacing carnival streets that grow insanely intense.

Jumping up and down in faded blue jeans, a white T-shirt and tan desert boots with no socks, Brian keeps a lit Marlboro dangling from his lips. Brian loves life, plays primitive blues piano, dances alone to Van Morrison and harmlessly flirts with any young woman who dares smile at him. Brian never saw anything like this scene.

None of us have.

Mike, Brian’s Bucks County roommate from Yardley, PA, pounds on the car roof screaming, “Holy shit, holy shit.” Chilly as it is, Mike’s dressed in the same uniform he wears to class in all weather – black loafers, no socks, blue jeans, white T-shirt and a thin brown suede jacket – that carries him through college to the day he graduates with two degrees. Transfixed, Mike rushes the crowd like a fullback spotting a hole. Mike’s a go-getter for better or for worse.

Knowing there’s no going back, I follow. Slung over my shoulder I carry a blue gym bag containing a pen and a spiral notebook as I dive deep into the first breaking news story I assign myself to cover as an aspiring journalist.  A seething sea of protesters swallows Max’s Ford Falcon that disappears in the madness.

Brian vanishes.

Max and Gary fade away.

I’m wearing a thick orange turtleneck sweater I borrowed from Dean who lives in Beaver Hall. He and his roommate are the first Jews I ever met. Despite my rural white upbringing, I made friends with two Black guys from Philly, too. College expands our horizons. The threat of dying in an unjust war does too. My uniform for the uprising includes blue jeans, brown Dingo boots endorsed on TV by celebrity football star Joe Namath himself and a heavy blue Navy peacoat through which I can feel my beating heart.

Tear gas accumulates in clouds hanging above the trees, ripping into our eyes, tearing our vision and burning our nostrils, slapping us into an altered state of consciousness that’s far scarier than three-dollar mescaline. Desperate, moving hard and fast across DuPont Circle, Mike and I spot the red neon sign of a bar and push our way inside like scarred street commandos escaping enemy captors through the open doors of rebellion. We’re experts now, a new generation’s raw electric eyes to an insurrection in a city preparing for a mobilization of up to 750,000 people who oppose our government’s cruel war in Southeast Asia.

“What’s it like out there?” asks an excitable Establishment type.

Holding out the lapels of my thick coat, I say, “Take a whiff of this, man.”

Turning away from the stinging, clinging gas mist nobody will mistake for Jade East or Hai Karate cologne, he quickly backs off. Mike and I offer knowledge like Fidel and Che just back from the Sierra Maestras, regaling our privileged inquisitors with mind-blowing urban warfare observations that portray us as more important and seasoned than we are. We’re the center of attention and dig it, but soon tire of the scene. We need the harsh fix of broken glass in the gutter. Groovy gawkers want superficial news. We crave action.

“Thanks for the beer,” I say to a man with skin that matches the pearl onion in his martini who told us he was a reporter with the Associated Press as he seemed to call in his story from the black bar telephone.

“They don’t like us,” I tell Mike when we split, heading back the block to DuPont Circle.

“They’re afraid of us, too,” he says.

We laugh, a couple of tough, naive white, male teenagers with college deferments we didn’t even ask for, flush with Budweiser and the jangled nerve endings of our live wire night playing full blast in our heads like the run-through-the-jungle Credence song roaring from vibrating speakers on a psychedelic jukebox.

We quickly see the cop mob but don’t meet them head-on until they charge and are on top of us – dozens of D.C. riot cops in Samurai-like battle helmets rushing the two of us as soon as we get halfway across the park, brandishing dark clubs that shine like blue-black bruises beneath bright yellow street lights.

Agile and strong, Mike and I take off fast among a screaming horde that continues to chant, wave VC flags and scream anti-war slogans. Mike trips over a wire mesh trash can almost as soon as he turns and goes down hard, bellowing curses with cops swarming, dragging him to his feet and pulling him into the night. Crowd chants pound in my head as I sprint looking for a getaway and keep running, dropping my blue gym bag and scribbled notes until I’m almost out of the park – trapped in a city circle of concrete, dirt, grass and white toxic mist with frenzied cops in masks closing in fast, ready to crack open my skull because I chose an academic education over shooting my VC peers in a rice paddy or dying for my country in ‘Nam or coming home unhinged for the rest of my life – all in the dysfunctional spirit of America, land of the free and home of the knave.

A shiny black Buick sedan stops quickly along the curb, the left back door flies open, a woman screams, “Get in,” as I lunge headfirst into the back seat and pull the door closed. The driver slowly pulls away, calmly steering into the outer rim of traffic that continues to move forward despite the riot.

“We have a son your age,” the woman says before her stern, silent husband pulls to the curb at the next corner. I thank them for saving me, get out and head back to the bar where boozy bourgeoisie keepers of the kingdom locked the door and refuse to let me in even though they recognize me through the window. I’m fast learning the unwritten rules of the new American Revolution. Protesters survive at their own risk in this ruthless, predatory society where money, privilege and access mean everything.

Dazed and confused I ask tensed stragglers on the street where I can crash. They direct me to a row house on a nearby side street where I sleep on the floor in my clothes and don’t talk to anybody who’s stretched out near me. I’m stunned, a little freaked out and angry, but I keep the anarchy to myself. In the morning I still don’t talk to anybody. Turning up my coat collar I walk alone, following the crowd, moving deep into a maze of tall gray government buildings where thousands of insurrectionists and militants gather in a bright November sun.

Weathermen, the Mad Dogs and other small insurgent groups now lay siege to the main Justice Department building. Rocks and bottles smash through office windows. Tear gas again fills the air. Cops manhandle and arrest anybody they can grab, including mostly peaceful protestors. Uncertain soldiers grip rifles in fear. I keep my distance and remain nonviolent.

I’m a good kid, a good citizen and a good piece of cannon fodder to sacrifice in a brutal, shabby war. Other than experimenting with drugs, drinking and driving drunk, I usually obey the law.

Night falls.

The air turns cold as I make my way through huddled masses gathered around the Washington Monument. Blue white lights sparkle like my ice blue Aqua Velva aftershave lotion. My legs hurt. I feel abandoned in my own country. Over and over I yell, “Penn State, Penn State, anybody going to Penn State?” hoping to make a connection and get one long lucky ride back home.

Nobody responds. 

I walk past the brightly-lit Lincoln Memorial and onto a wide street. I stick out my thumb. Why I think I can hitchhike 200 miles out of Washington on a winter night is a good question. After freezing for about a half hour, some redneck in a car throws a bottle at me. Glass smashes on the street. My thumbs are numb. Like countless draftees in far worse circumstances, I don’t want to fight but will if I have to.

Survival sometimes embodies rage.

A car filled with demonstrators stops. About an hour later I awake in a stifling hot backseat as they speed into the darkness and I realize I’m almost headed in the wrong direction on a black and barren interstate. They back up and let me out as I walk into the empty abyss.

Tired and needing sleep, I have no choice but to keep moving. Eighteen-wheelers roar by close enough to touch as I turn my back to protect myself against frigid wind and thrown gravel. My feet hurt. My face and ears hurt. I need shelter. A speck of light in the distance guides me over the guardrail, down a steep embankment and through a field. The spotlight gets brighter as the glow finally outlines a barn and a farmhouse. I find my way, step up onto the porch and knock on the door.

A man my father’s age answers. I apologize softly for bothering him so late at night. I tell him where I’ve been and ask if I can sleep in his barn. I look like everything farm-fed America is supposed to fear and hate. The man asks me inside. His wife wants to know if I’m hungry as she quickly prepares a hot homemade meal from their supper leftovers and gives me apple pie for dessert.

We don’t talk politics. I am what I am. They are who they are – God-fearing, law-abiding Americans helping a young wanderer in need and leaving an impression that lives with me forever. They make up a bed for me on the couch and I sleep soundly beneath a soft handmade quilt. In the morning the house seems deserted. I put on my boots quietly and go into the sun-filled kitchen looking for a pen to write a thank-you note. I lost my pens and notebook the night before when I dropped my gym bag in the unprovoked police attack. The farm couple’s son who looks to be my age appears out of nowhere and tells me his parents have gone to church.  I thank him deeply, borrow a pen and paper, write a note to his mom and dad and head back to the highway in the golden light of a new day that puts me back at Penn State by dinner time.

Mike greets me like a returning war hero when I spot him in the back of the dining hall and we race to embrace. We tell our tales. The cops let him go when Mike lied and said he was a stringer for the Associated Press. God bless the First Amendment.

When I come home from school the following weekend, my father asks if I was the hitchhiker a friend of his saw walking the previous weekend by the river near the turnoff for our small town where the Appalachian Trail runs down the middle of the main street.

Yeah, I say.

“Why didn’t you stop and see your mother?” he asks.

“It’s a long story,” I say.

“Don’t ever do that again,” my dad says.

I promise I won’t.

The following spring, on May 4, 1970, on the campus of Kent State University, 28 Ohio National Guardsmen open fire on a group of student anti-war demonstrators, killing four and shooting nine others, one of whom a bullet permanently paralyzed. We don’t have to go to Vietnam for soldiers to kill us. Our own troops can easily shoot us on campus and slaughter us at home. We can die as volunteers of America.

My Pennsylvania State Police officer father eventually shows up on Penn State’s main campus in riot gear as part of a massive state police contingent assigned to secure the sprawling university grounds where students take over Old Main, the lofty administration building.

I’m getting radicalized all by myself.

Unlike before, I refuse to promise my dad not to do it again.

America today still needs all the nonviolent rebellion we can get. Violence might be inevitable. But peace is always the answer. For resistance and liberation to prevail and succeed we need to protest and question authority. We need to speak truth to power and hold powerbrokers accountable. We need to take it to the streets.

I long ago internalized those lessons of war and peace.

As always, time marches on.

Mike is living in Connecticut, enjoying the good life as a wealthy conservative businessman and grandfather who voted for Trump. His college roommate Brian died a few years ago, his sweet song disappearing into the heavens where his harmless innocence lives among the clouds.

For whatever the reason, Max didn’t talk to me at our 50th high school reunion in 2019.  And after countless acid trips Gary became and remains an evangelist preacher who recently delivered the eulogy at a national cemetery for another high school friend, a Marine who survived Vietnam and led a local chapter of a notorious outlaw motorcycle club but succumbed to pancreatic cancer. Pastor Gary’s eyes met mine from a distance, but we didn’t seek out each other to talk.

After more than half a century of fighting the system, I’m still pushing political revolution as a good citizen and outlaw journalist who fights garbage corporate media as much as I fight the rest of elite mainstream politics.

Our rising’s mutinous message is as clear as the words a young woman recently shouted into the bullhorn outside the General Dynamics ammunition plant in my hometown of Scranton, Pennsylvania – President Joe Biden’s birthplace.

“Biden, Biden, you can’t hide, we charge you with genocide.”

America’s president should know better. If Democrats lose control of the country to Donald Trump or worse waiting in the wings, they’ll have nobody to blame but themselves.

From Scranton to Columbia to Gaza and beyond, our endurance empowers our mission.

We have the right to petition government for redress of grievances. We’re here to assemble and hold you accountable whether you like it or not. We don’t need permission to challenge your betrayal of humanity. We owe it to the whole world that is still watching.

So look what’s coming up the street.

“We are volunteers of America,” Jefferson Airplane’s national anthem defiantly declares.

“Got a revolution.

“Got to revolution.”